[ It's true enough. Arrogance makes up so much of him; rarely is Lelouch ever sincere, the ugliness in his heart so often present on his face, caustic as to never allow anyone to understand him further. His on-again, off-again love affair with vengeance was what sustained him for so long. So his grasp on affection has been tenuous and ever-worsening as he's left to his own devices; in relinquishing Nunnally to Suzaku, he's left the very last of himself behind.
Jeremiah regales such a staggeringly tender account of his family, so soft he's briefly lost in it. Lelouch is unbearably jealous, and irreconcilably envious, but mostly just entranced by talk of conviviality. He forgets even his ego-driven obsession to manipulate everyone around him, if just for a moment; it's the clink of ice cubes splitting in his drink that calls him back, mulling awhile over it. ]
This is precisely why I have to ask. Because the honorable don't hold enough regard for themselves. You'd tell me whether or not you should have, simply because I'd like to know.
[ Acting always for someone else and never for himself, not glory-seeking but devoted to the crown, even to his own detriment: that's the kind of thinking that will eventually destroy Jeremiah, should Lelouch never cut him loose from fealty. He knows that well enough, given that his childhood friend is also predisposed to being a self-sacrificing martyr more often than not.
Family gatherings, is it? Funny how he can't imagine it, but hearing of Jeremiah's sister is enough to fill in the gaps between. ]
It sounds pleasant. I would have liked to attend one for myself.
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Jeremiah regales such a staggeringly tender account of his family, so soft he's briefly lost in it. Lelouch is unbearably jealous, and irreconcilably envious, but mostly just entranced by talk of conviviality. He forgets even his ego-driven obsession to manipulate everyone around him, if just for a moment; it's the clink of ice cubes splitting in his drink that calls him back, mulling awhile over it. ]
This is precisely why I have to ask. Because the honorable don't hold enough regard for themselves. You'd tell me whether or not you should have, simply because I'd like to know.
[ Acting always for someone else and never for himself, not glory-seeking but devoted to the crown, even to his own detriment: that's the kind of thinking that will eventually destroy Jeremiah, should Lelouch never cut him loose from fealty. He knows that well enough, given that his childhood friend is also predisposed to being a self-sacrificing martyr more often than not.
Family gatherings, is it? Funny how he can't imagine it, but hearing of Jeremiah's sister is enough to fill in the gaps between. ]
It sounds pleasant. I would have liked to attend one for myself.